Struggling to engage…

I’m about a third of the way through editing ‘Loving Judah’ for publishing on Kindle. As you may know this is the third of my novels which will be available through Amazon as an e-reader… and to be honest, this time I am struggling.

When I write, or work on something which is finished, the characters are with me, in my head most of my waking moments (yes, I know this sounds weird!) When I was working on ‘Farholm’, Deke and Michael and Sean were always there, even when I was away from my computer. I was retelling the story from different points of view, living their lives after the narrative had finished, exploring different scenarios and outcomes. I knew them so well, feisty but damaged Deke, angry, tough Michael, a man with a very hard shell but a very soft centre, and cocky, arrogant Sean who thought he was God’s gift to women… until he met Deke.

When I was working on ‘The Stalking of Rosa Czekov’ this was even more so. The complicated lives and relationships of Rosa and her husband Luka, his cousin Tyche, his best friends Rudi and Estelle, the enigmatic, Tic… They were with me all the time; I was constantly having to distance myself from them to try and see them as the reader would, meeting for the first time. From the first few pages the hunt was on for Rosa’s stalker, and I hope when the revelation came it was a shock to the reader and yet believable because the hints and suggestions I had sown as I told the story.

And now I’m working on ‘Loving Judah’… it’s a very different story in some ways, but there are the same aspects to it, truths concealed or only half-told, characters learning about themselves as well as  others in the tale… And maybe this is why I am having to work so hard with the characters of Aislin and her husband Peter, their friends Gideon and Sandi and the Polglass family. There are moral dilemmas in this tale which take   courage to face; Deke and Michael had to have enormous courage to travel to Farholm, Tyche had to be very strong, physically and emotionally to go to Easthope. Ailsin has to look within herself and make decisions which are not always to do with the rational, should she listen to her heart or follow the path her head tells her is right?

Should Aislin open the door into a different life?
The door opens, and a path is revealed… should Aislin step through and follow the new path?



  1. Anne Orchard

    It all sounds very intriguing Lois. In my observation of life, when people make decisions based on their head then they usually seem to have to end up making the same decision again as their heart will not accept what they have done. This is why you hear people repeating the same situations and problems until they get the answer ‘right’ for them.
    Just my thoughts based on what you asked 🙂


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